Love never ends

It’s a strange feeling. Knowing where you are in life. This knowledge about your past and everything that you ever remember. The journey, the people that you miss, the time that you have lost. No, we are not getting any younger. I feel like I am responding to a friend who called me late at night. She unfriended me on facebook. Perhaps it means that we are no longer friends. I have always cared about her.

I’ve been on my bed this entire day and im planning on doing the same tomorrow as well. I have been tired. I imagine to be on a mini vacation inside my room.

I miss my mom. More often than ever these days I think of how little time there is left for us in this world. And I should learn to love my mother. I get angry with her because I am afraid of the pain I feel from the monstrous things she says. I am now sad that I may never get a chance to love her.

I always think of a reason to believe that she is a bad person who never appreciates what I do or who I am. Are my feelings just petty? Is my anger meaningless? I still feel that my love is misunderstood. God gives every person a struggle only when he knows that they are strong enough to face it. Perhaps there is something god wants me to understand.

You know, i’ve always thought that life was a lot like mathematics. Problems, solutions, everywhere. I know that there is a perfect solution to every problem and that all problems has solutions. My life has never been the same ever since I realized this. Perhaps it will change more.

Love solves all things unsolvable. There is a reason I have been given this light in my life. Now all that I have to do is to treat them with kindness, with patience, accept pain and not be afraid of it.

On the last year of my school we were all given a souvenir, it had a bible verse printed on it. Everytime I feel lost, I read these beautiful lines and my life would have meaning and purpose again. I have written it here so I could remember it by heart and never make the same mistakes over and over again.

Corinthians 13: 4-8
Love is patient and kind;
love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice in the wrong,
but rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things.
Endures all things.
Love never ends.
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Attachments

In a world of attachment to be detached, is salvation.

Every animal lives to satisfy its basic need. Food and sex. As humans we need shelter too. These are the inevitable desires of life. There cannot be anyone, who can possibly say “I have no such desires at all!” If they did, that would be a well crafted Lie. We are all animals and we survive only to consume, Reproduce and die. This is our universal need.

We are emotional beings. We need our emotions to be understood and satisfied. Most times, when something is missingĀ in our life, it turns out to be a person, or a job, or a valuable stone, a feeling from the past, or just an imaginary future. Whichever it is, the want always exists. There is always some want or the other, some need, some unfulfilled desire, still leeching on our minds.

Our life is a product of these long term, unfulfilled desires. Once generated in our mind, we subconsciously begin a struggle to satisfy it. Most times, we end up spending our entire life just satisfying it. The funniest part, is that we never get satisfied. Each morning we wake up, we are hungry again.

We are allĀ  needy for love, greedy for sex, thrifty for money and wanting fame. The list of human desires, could only be endless. We imagine all that we want and strive to find it. Some times, we find it. Most times, we just sit down, stuck with a long face with a sensation of being a failure. We become immobile, chaotic, choice less, unsatisfied and suffer emotionally. We are not content with what we are. The result is that, we are caught in a loop and we cannot breakaway from it. We have lost our freedom to the smallest desires of life.

We are beings of fear, Jealousy, Anger, Lethargy and even boredom. This is the reason we are restless. This is the reason our life is completely meaningless.

We are living in an era of Change, welcoming the age of reason. We can attain order, and it can be attained only in reason. It is time to reason the unrealities of life, and accept what is real. We, the people, are a social community, of Friendly yet evil animals. Our world is filled with a great number of this only kind.

In all nature, we have lost the sense of humanity. We are now, Corporates, Brands, Products of fashion, Exhibitors of love, Identities, and most importantly, we are a group of individuals who have achieved economic globalization. Which means, now the entire world comes together to join hands, to smile, and to accept the fact that we live to make money.

The unspoken truth is that we hate each other. We are jealous, envious and angry. There is hate in the air, violence in the atmosphere, and anger in the oxygen we breathe. We are emotionally impure. We are the guilty.

We exist in this material world. In here, we possess everything. We care for our belongings. It doesn’t matter if it were things or people. We demand ownership over everything. We are obsessive and compulsive, over ourselves and everybody else. We constantly want something from everybody. That is the reason we talk to each other.

We have goals. An imaginary finish line. We are all entertainers, performing in front of a grand gallery of spectators. We hear loud roaring noises and it makes us nervous and petrified. We are running as fast as we could. There is always a thought on the mind, we might just trip and fall. We might never wake up again.

These fears exist in us, because we are emotionally insecure and attached to people and ourselves. Emotional attachment is the root cause of the fear of death. Since we love the world so much, we are not ready to part with it at all.

The idea of death, is always unacceptable to our human kind. Why should death be scary at all? If we know it is inevitable that everyone born in this world has to die, then why is it so hard for us to accept it? The root of this problem always returns back to the attachment we have with our own identity. The unique sense we have created to our own name. The belief that our name is real. The belief that “I am” the name i believe.

We don’t care about anybody. We only care about what everybody feels about us. This is how we have transformed into the evils of society. Too bad, we cannot return to being cave men and cave women, covered with tiny bits of leaves and no sense of shame at all. Today, we are civilians and we pretend we don’t have feelings. That is only a lie we project.

The truth is we have feelings. We live in a sexually repressed society. We wish we can be as outgoing as we want to be, but we cannot. We have become the image we wanted to project. We are no more a human person at all. We are calculative, manipulative, pretentious beings, worse than the most dangerous animal in the world. Today, the weak fears the strong, and the strong brings order. We are slaves to hierarchy and to our own minds. This world is playing with Human Respect.

Respect is the highest emotion we can give another animal. Respect is what makes us believe that we are right. People who know it, use it, and get used to using it. People who don’t know it, get used by it.

There is a way out of this mess. It is the way our religion teaches us. This will get us out of the loop we are caught in. The pathway to peace and freedom. To lose all attachments to desire is the only way. To realize all feelings are unreal, is the pathway. To believe, to change, and to let go, is the process to attain nothingness. To understand that we are living in a movie and all that happens is happening in our head, is enlightenment.

Feelings is the by product of an emotional state. As you think, so you feel. As you believe, so you change. Human life is a gift. A gift from the eternal being, to the beings of love. Attachment to any worldly desire is a sin. In a world of attachments, to be detached, is salvation.