Trust

Death is part of life and living. In fact death, completes life. Death makes our life valuable. We live in an ever changing world as emotionally attached souls. We believe we are meant to be here and we work hard towards our goals. This world makes us believe we are purposeless if we are not playing an important role.  Reasons are plenty to be put down in this world, where all that we are meant to be, is loyal to our soul.

Only when a person dies, do we really notice the strangeness of his existence. Until then, we are busy worried about many things that concern ourselves and our own lives. Only when a person dies, do we realize, there is absolutely NOTHING we can do, to be with them again. Nothing hits us like death. When we know someone close to our heart is gone and will never return again.

My friend’s father died. Its been so many years since i met him or my friend. When i got a call from my classmate who informed me about the death of an uncle, i thought i would not go to his funeral. After all, i had transformed into a stone. Water cannot penetrate through a stone, but strangely, it did.

There was a part of me who was astounded at this news. I loved him for a reason i cannot understand. I began to feel guilty for not having seen him all along. I realized if i don’t see him now, i will never see him again. I was pushed out of my bed and before i knew, i was running to say goodbye.

On my way back to this old place, many memories were flashing in front of my eyes. Memories of a man who we were very fond of. When he had a choice to do something in this world, for some reason he chose to make us smile. He would always do every little thing to make us all happy, to makes us feel together. He never saw a difference between his daughter and us. He treated us all alike, we were happy to be around him.

I reached their house. I saw the most liveliest man, life-less inside a coffin box, his feet tied together with a piece of cloth, with a faint smile on his face. I’ve always known that smile. My heart began to feel heavy, there were tears in my eyes. I could hear his voice in my head. His jokes and smiles. How strange is life? Its been so many years and yet, these memories are fresh on my mind.

My friend has always been a strong girl. I’ve respected her mother because she always seemed serious, i was secretly scared of her because of all the seriousness. She was still serious, but in a state of mind only she could understand. I wanted to touch her feet, there was no reason to it, i just wanted to.

I could understand what was going on. She has lost her soul-mate. She was as life-less as him, only, she was still conscious. Her eyes were moving. They were moving towards me. She said something that i couldn’t understand. I leaned forward to hear her better and i heard her say, “He always asked about you. He wanted to see you.” What could i say? I cried.

I knew the truth. The truth behind my hiding and running away from friends and family. I was emotionally closed to this world. I had locked myself in a glass box and never wanted to get out of there. I wanted to make it big in a fancy world. I wanted to become a Director and come back out and meet them all.

When i was young, Xavier uncle encouraged me in my photography. He was proud of me. He was my favorite father. He loved me in a way i was meant to be loved, and i loved him back too. But i wanted to make it big in this hopeless world. By the end of this unknown goodbye, i realized i was wrong. How can i apologize to him now that he is gone? How can i make him smile? How can i ever talk to him again, tell him all my jokes and all. It is never going to happen, it was all just a dream. I am a dreamer, and i have let life pass me by.

I met my best friends there at his funeral house. Faces i had imprinted in my heart. The five of us ended up in the kitchen, which officially is our place of worship. We stayed in there for a while. Its been seven years since we met, and all that we could think was, how much he wanted us to be together. He always said it. “Always stay together, Take care of Jennifer” We the stone hearted five, were still hanging out in the kitchen talking about life. We never took care of Jennifer, we always left her behind. It was harshly strange, that it was her father’s death that reunited us again.

By the end of it all, aunty said her prayers, it was more of a goodbye to her husband. She said “He has always taken care of me like a child, no other woman would ever find a husband like him. His body lies here, he lives in my heart.” She thanked him with all her heart and all that words could express. It was the most beautiful goodbye ever. We cried. We cried all that we can. I touched his feet to say goodbye. I wished he was alive.

They changed aunty’s clothes, they put slippers onto her feet. She neither hesitated to participate, nor was part of it. She was lost somewhere within herself. We were hanging by the gate, as we watched them leave. It was as though aunty was returning to reality. Jennifer was so kind hearted, even at this stage, she was making people feel comfortable. My heart was guilty of love untold and unexpressed. I returned back to my childhood when it was easy to laugh and smile. When it was easy to trust people and love them the way they were.

I used to trust people blindly. There was never a reason to trust anyone. I blindly trusted them because i wanted to. Jennifer and her father trusted us like that and we trusted them back too. That is why our relationship was special. This is what i could not follow or understand, anymore. Life had taken me through unsustainable turns, and along the way i had lost faith in people. I had lost the trust i had. This goodbye, reminded me that there are still people in this world, who are worthy to be trusted and loved. This world is still a beautiful place and happiness changes it all.

Xavier uncle’s death enlightened me, it opened my heart again. A place that has been shut down for many years. My face was frozen with hatred and anger. There was nothing more that could bring back love into my heart. Today, my heart is filled with love, and i will not hesitate to express it. Nothing is worth not being happy. This world is a happy place and it always should be. Xavier uncle brought back light into my heart, and unfortunately, all that i can do is remember him by.

Windows for the soul

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I’ve always enjoyed reading this. This is a great explanation for how our mind works. There is always that inevitable intention to make sense out of everything we see. This tendency to make sense is not just for language, but for our world, our surroundings, our existence, our daily life, our relationships, family values, virtues, beliefs, even life on the whole. After all, we spend our entire life trying to make sense out of it.

“Making Sense” is unique to every individual. Individuality arises because we are limited to our senses and controlled by the mind. Identity is man’s idea to keep our individuality intact. Apart from the fact that we have different names and that we are different in color, we are all the same beings. We are thinking beings and the significance of perception is the same to all of us.

Perception is the process of attaining awareness or understanding of the environment, by organizing and interpreting sensory information. Our sense organs collects information from outside, and our mind interprets it within. We live inside our body, understand and survive through change, we learn everything we need to learn about what is outside of us. There is a wonderful world outside, as well as within.

Outside, its an appearance world. All that we see outside our self is light. Our main source of light is the sun. Light alone exists, and the colour that we see in the surrounding is generated in the mind. Where there is no light, there is no colour. Colour changes with light. Visible light is a small part of the complete electromagnetic spectrum.

Complete spectrum of electromagnetic radiation...

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Out of the radiation spectrum, visible light is the only wave particle we can see with our human eyes. Light falls on every object, and for us to be able to see the colour of the object, a whole lot of mechanism takes place. The object absorbs the light wave which corresponds to its pigment and reflects the rest of the light wave. The reflected light ray hits our eye and depending upon its wavelength, colour is generated in the mind. Colour is not real, its perceptive.

This is why colour blind people cannot see some colours, and blind people cannot see at all. Colour is different in all our eyes, it depends on the amount of cells we have in each eye. All that we see, as the world outside, are collaborated images from both our eyes. It gives us depth perception. Our eyes create a 3 dimensional view of the world to distinguish light and shadow, to understand how nearer or farther any object is. Our eyes help us see, and we only see what we want to see.

Beauty is as we believe. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. If we see something with love, it automatically becomes beautiful. This is a strange phenomenon in our magical world. Science can explain this even better, but, unfortunately, the language of science is very old. In this era of change, it would be greatness for our human race to discover our true potential, our divine nature, so we can live with the joy of salvation blessed in universal harmony.

God‘s light exists within our hearts. It has a powerful shine, and when it shines we glow from within. This is not an ordinary world. We are not ordinary people surviving a government. This is a supernatural world, we are divine creatures capable of change. All that we need to do is surrender to being. We need to trust in the higher power and free fall. Our life is the best journey we have ever taken or ever can.

We have to lose the false sense of self which is created by identity. We need to awaken to a higher consciousness and sing praises of our creator within. Where there is no more attachment to the self and to the material world, we are free to claim back our relationship with the supreme power and remain in bliss, we can attain nirvana.

Man’s restlessness can come to an end if he seeks the powers within. The purpose of life is to attain universal harmony. There is a verse from Natya Shastra called Abhinaya Dharpanam (Stage Craft). It teaches the way to create Rasa(Emotion). As humans our divine purpose is to create the appropriate emotion at the appropriate moment to experience divine bliss. The verse says…

“Yatohasto Tatodhristi, Yatodhristi Tatomanas, Yatomanas Tatobhaava, Yatobhaava Tatorasa.”

It means,

“where the hands go, goes the eyes, where the eyes go, goes the mind, where the mind goes, that is expressed, where there is expression, emotion is evoked”

This is the pathway to universal harmony in dance and divine love. The universe is within us. The precious light of god lives within our body and contains our soul. The soul never dies, it never gets old or affected. It is an energy that can neither be created nor be destroyed. It can only be transformed from one body to another. It is that which we can never see but feel.

Even though we are born as individuals in this world our purpose is to become one with all. This beautiful world can only be seen through the gift of eyes, which are windows for the soul.

Changing Realities

Reality changes, as you believe.

There is always one reality. What is present and what is right now. This reality, constantly changes and it changes with time. We have previously learnt that time is the unsolvable mystery of life. The factor being it cannot be seen or felt and it keeps moving forward. We can never go back in time and no one can tamper it. This is our blind faith in the mystery of time, and it is due to this blind faith we fail to recognize a wonderful changing reality, that is changing constantly.

We live in submission to our own belief and remain limited by it. Our belief in time is so unshakable that it is impossible for us to stop and think for one moment, that time might not exist. After all, we work on time, we wake up on time, we sleep on time, we eat on time, we live for the time-being, then how could we begin to believe that time is not real? But the truth my friend, is that, it isn’t.

Time is a dimension, a perception, a concept. A concept created by mankind. Time is imaginary. The reason for its creation, is to measure the rate of change. This world is constantly changing and without time, we will never be able to follow history. Our life would be meaningless without time. It would be as though, everything happened at once. We might die with the sensation of never having lived at all. To make our human life comprehensible to our own selves, great minds of the past, invented time. It is not part of our nature, it is part of our minds.

Reality is unique to everyone of us. Each of us have a unique story running on our minds about ourselves. We are the creators of our lives. What we believe is our reality. Our future is as we see. Our mind is a fabulous agent that helps us move forward and at the same time keeps us contained within our insecurities. We are the strongest and only if we want to be.

We are a reasoning device. All we need is one reason to make us believe what we want to believe. We are free beings who can do anything we want. We live in a society, it contains many of us. It is we who compromise and blame others for our failures. It is a reason we find to not move forward, to not take control and remain stuck in a place, where we don’t want to be. We fear future. We fear what we can’t see and dont know. We fear life.

Reality is a wonderful journey through change. It takes courage to move forward in time. It is stupid to wait for opportunities. The fearless, follows his dream. Each one of us have amazing dreams, and would do anything to make it true. Would it not be great if someone had told us how to make our dreams come true? A strange part of life is that, sometimes all that we need to do, is take the first step, and everything else will fall in place.

This universe loves us. This universe would do anything to make our dream come true. All that we need to do is believe in it. Believe that if we are on the right pathway, the right will happen. If something is going wrong it is only because we are not right. Spiritual learning never seizes. It is an ongoing process from birth to death. God‘s guiding light stays with us forever. We have to open our eyes to see it.

Our job in darkness, is to take decisions. Our mind involves us in the decision making process all the time. There are no wrong decisions, only doubts that lurk beneath the surface. It takes confidence to stick to our decisions. When we stick to our decisions, reality changes. Life is like an escalator, all you need to do is take the first step, and we will be dropped off where we need to be. It helps if we are aware of where we stand. It makes it easy to get off, after all, you never know how many more escalators you need to take. You never know how far you need to go.

Attachments

In a world of attachment to be detached, is salvation.

Every animal lives to satisfy its basic need. Food and sex. As humans we need shelter too. These are the inevitable desires of life. There cannot be anyone, who can possibly say “I have no such desires at all!” If they did, that would be a well crafted Lie. We are all animals and we survive only to consume, Reproduce and die. This is our universal need.

We are emotional beings. We need our emotions to be understood and satisfied. Most times, when something is missing in our life, it turns out to be a person, or a job, or a valuable stone, a feeling from the past, or just an imaginary future. Whichever it is, the want always exists. There is always some want or the other, some need, some unfulfilled desire, still leeching on our minds.

Our life is a product of these long term, unfulfilled desires. Once generated in our mind, we subconsciously begin a struggle to satisfy it. Most times, we end up spending our entire life just satisfying it. The funniest part, is that we never get satisfied. Each morning we wake up, we are hungry again.

We are all  needy for love, greedy for sex, thrifty for money and wanting fame. The list of human desires, could only be endless. We imagine all that we want and strive to find it. Some times, we find it. Most times, we just sit down, stuck with a long face with a sensation of being a failure. We become immobile, chaotic, choice less, unsatisfied and suffer emotionally. We are not content with what we are. The result is that, we are caught in a loop and we cannot breakaway from it. We have lost our freedom to the smallest desires of life.

We are beings of fear, Jealousy, Anger, Lethargy and even boredom. This is the reason we are restless. This is the reason our life is completely meaningless.

We are living in an era of Change, welcoming the age of reason. We can attain order, and it can be attained only in reason. It is time to reason the unrealities of life, and accept what is real. We, the people, are a social community, of Friendly yet evil animals. Our world is filled with a great number of this only kind.

In all nature, we have lost the sense of humanity. We are now, Corporates, Brands, Products of fashion, Exhibitors of love, Identities, and most importantly, we are a group of individuals who have achieved economic globalization. Which means, now the entire world comes together to join hands, to smile, and to accept the fact that we live to make money.

The unspoken truth is that we hate each other. We are jealous, envious and angry. There is hate in the air, violence in the atmosphere, and anger in the oxygen we breathe. We are emotionally impure. We are the guilty.

We exist in this material world. In here, we possess everything. We care for our belongings. It doesn’t matter if it were things or people. We demand ownership over everything. We are obsessive and compulsive, over ourselves and everybody else. We constantly want something from everybody. That is the reason we talk to each other.

We have goals. An imaginary finish line. We are all entertainers, performing in front of a grand gallery of spectators. We hear loud roaring noises and it makes us nervous and petrified. We are running as fast as we could. There is always a thought on the mind, we might just trip and fall. We might never wake up again.

These fears exist in us, because we are emotionally insecure and attached to people and ourselves. Emotional attachment is the root cause of the fear of death. Since we love the world so much, we are not ready to part with it at all.

The idea of death, is always unacceptable to our human kind. Why should death be scary at all? If we know it is inevitable that everyone born in this world has to die, then why is it so hard for us to accept it? The root of this problem always returns back to the attachment we have with our own identity. The unique sense we have created to our own name. The belief that our name is real. The belief that “I am” the name i believe.

We don’t care about anybody. We only care about what everybody feels about us. This is how we have transformed into the evils of society. Too bad, we cannot return to being cave men and cave women, covered with tiny bits of leaves and no sense of shame at all. Today, we are civilians and we pretend we don’t have feelings. That is only a lie we project.

The truth is we have feelings. We live in a sexually repressed society. We wish we can be as outgoing as we want to be, but we cannot. We have become the image we wanted to project. We are no more a human person at all. We are calculative, manipulative, pretentious beings, worse than the most dangerous animal in the world. Today, the weak fears the strong, and the strong brings order. We are slaves to hierarchy and to our own minds. This world is playing with Human Respect.

Respect is the highest emotion we can give another animal. Respect is what makes us believe that we are right. People who know it, use it, and get used to using it. People who don’t know it, get used by it.

There is a way out of this mess. It is the way our religion teaches us. This will get us out of the loop we are caught in. The pathway to peace and freedom. To lose all attachments to desire is the only way. To realize all feelings are unreal, is the pathway. To believe, to change, and to let go, is the process to attain nothingness. To understand that we are living in a movie and all that happens is happening in our head, is enlightenment.

Feelings is the by product of an emotional state. As you think, so you feel. As you believe, so you change. Human life is a gift. A gift from the eternal being, to the beings of love. Attachment to any worldly desire is a sin. In a world of attachments, to be detached, is salvation.

Why Religion?

Existence is the state of being alive, a consciousness that assures we are still part of the world. Knowledge makes us understand that, there is a universe beyond our imagination and it is widespread until Forever. Nothing can exist beyond the universe and everything that exists, exists within it.

We as the human species, are aware of the smallness of our size in comparison to the whole. We have to rely on our senses. For our ability to see, hear, smell, taste, and feel everything that is outside of us. Outside of our own consciousness. Inside, we feel dark, closed, and trapped. Trapped within our emotions, Restricted to our feelings. Living with the sensation of being a container.

We are contained within insecurities. Created by ourselves but completely forgotten. We keep running in a loop, one after the other. Einstein says, doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results, is insanity. If that is an acceptable equation, then we should accept that we are all insane, because that is what we keep doing with our ever-changing state of mind.

There are so many of us. We are an entire species that has assumed itself to be important and to believe that we are of the highest order in the entire animal kingdom. We have created an aura around the word “Human beings” that we feel very, very special to be one.

We have forgotten that we are all animals, by nature. Aren’t we animals at all? Our entire life revolves around our feelings. All animals have feelings. All animals are Men and Women. How are we not animals anymore? Mankind’s own creation is Language. What we mean by language, is our ability to create a noise. All animals creates noises of some decibel, that its own species can hear. The bottom line is that, we are just an animal and our world, is a beautiful Zoo.

Animal nature is to not feel bad when we Kill. We as People, do that too. All we need, is the right reason, and everything will be in order. Our entire logic functions based on the belief system. We have a belief system living in us, and it is as delicate as the wings of a butterfly. When touched, it withers. But the beautiful part is that, it Can be changed. This is where Religion plays an extra ordinary role.

Religion teaches our belief system, what is “Right”. The thing about our “Human condition”  is that, when we are right, nothing can be wrong. Religion, is a practice we need to constantly be in connection with. Eventually, through religion, we can be liberated from our feelings and its constant control over the state of mind. Through religion, we can just Remain. We can attain Nirvana, the supreme state of mind of being liberated from bondage to feelings and suffering, to experience the serene peace in empty stillness.

Religion is the pathway to god. Its pathway leads us to be reconnected with the supreme power. He who has always been with us, he who has always been our friend and guide. In him, we trust, and learn to let go of worldly attachments, and in peace, with him, we will forever remain.

The Human Condition

Righteousness, as Krishna teaches Arjuna

“The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother’s keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is The Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee.” Ezekiel 25:17,

Just like in “Pulp Fiction“, the verse before the angry man fires many rounds of bullets onto another human being, with no fear or love, as his master’s slave. His own act of Righteousness! A beautiful movie, indeed. However, my friend, life is not just a movie and most times, it is not just Beautiful. When you shoot someone in reality, they die. And, if you killed someone, you are bound to feel bad. That, is the Human condition, that is how we exist. We are made to emote, to each other and to ourselves. But chances are, if you are a mean person, you most probably wont.

There is a valley of darkness for each one of us, and while we are at it, there are people around us, watching, if not for anything, just to laugh. They have filled their heart with hatred, and emptied themselves into a box. They Live in a void, and love it. Someday, they would realize, they live only in their head!

There is an angry Jules in all of us, an angry dark person, who does not understand the true nature of a so called, Civilization. Who does not understand, why we do what we do, every single day.

Why we wake up from sleep and find a new day. Why we look for a pathway? Why are we hoping to be led somewhere? Why do we trust people? We respect people, we love people, we live by our word. We hope and pray, each day, that today would be better day. That today, will change our life. Someone, somewhere, somehow, will change our life. But the truth is, it will not. We live in a state of yesterday forever. It is not a very good state.

Building stories in our head, calling if Life. What we experience in our day-to-day scenarios is a harsh truth, we feel it and remain contained within our feelings. We express ourselves to each other. We call ourselves, people. We change our faces, we laugh, we cry. We act what we feel, and we react, to what we feel.

We are slaves to our own minds. The place where everything ends and begins. A chaotic hyper galaxy. Always active, and functional. Leading us forward in time. Most times, we have no idea why we did what we did. Only later, we sit and ponder, recollect scenes and shots of yesterday and the day before and go back to childhood. While at the state of ponder, it is pretty much possible to go back to childhood. Its pretty much possible to never return.

With Memories fresh in the mind, with places never forgotten. With a sensation of having lived, we contain back in the box and go back to sleep. Like nothing ever happened. Like you never had a problem. Cheated by our own nature and living with a higher one. Our ever existing nature to forget, and the higher nature to remember. We call it just memories and go back to sleep.

Only our memory is based on how people made us feel, which in turn, is our own personal story. Without it, we are just mad people. Changing our faces, smiling, laughing, angry, sad, lifeless, regardless, and very very worried about something we never understand.

We are humans. We live in a condition. Its called Madness. To make things look cool, we call it a civilization. We are the righteous, living in an era of an Awakening. We are being deceived by pretentious people, who need our trust and respect.

We respect people only because we love them. But in the end, they will shoot us in our head, and will not be bothered about having done it, because, they just don’t care.

These people exist all around us. They have returned to their animal nature and use language as a tool to lie. They pretend to be nice, only to attack when you are not watching. Like Hyenas. They call themselves the Governments, the leaders, the bosses, The important and all. They are Pretentious. They exist in our society, and we, the crazy civilians, spend our entire life, trying to understand them.

We are fools of love. Cheated and spat on. Nobody cares about our existence, they only make it seem, like it does.