Choose Life

Trainspotting. A juvenile drug movie. What can one possibly learn from a drug movie.. Let me rephrase.. Allow me to rephrase. What can a drug abuser, a junkie, a person completely blinded by the belief that drugs are the only answer to life, learn, from a movie like train-spotting?

The answer I’m looking for is….”The value of time and the meaning of life.” bet you didn’t think of it. Bet you don’t care!


But what you do care about is why i raised the thought.. Why choose life…. Trainspotting is a must watch movie.. Not only for mindless junkies, but for every person who longs to know what he must do with his life. In the end of the movie, you would feel exhilarated by the words of Mark Renton. You would realise the importance of your choice in your life.

Choice. How mindless can we be to forget that we choose the miseries and joys of our life. I don’t mean to blame you. I mean to make you feel responsible for every event and non event of your time. Time is an individual’s asset, as is his home, his bike, or his mind.

Every time I decide to do what I want, it would be a beginning of a phase. A phase filled with chaos and fun and everlasting memories. Every time I choose life, something strange happens that I don’t remember every minute of being there. I only remember the people and the events of that time. So what is it to choose life? What does it feel like to choose life? How do you choose life?

How many times have you woken up in the morning and felt the warmth of the sun on your skin.. Or walked on the shore on a cold evening and listened to the sound of the waves.. How often do you sit in your room and stay calm to identify every single sound you hear from the roads far away. How often do you smile at a stranger for no reason.

Have you sat in a coffee shop alone to drink coffee and read a book you always thought was good. Have you gone for a jog in the dawn and made friends with a dog. Have you seen the light that changes as you move? Have you played with a kaleidoscope for a little longer than you knew its just some patterns of broken bangles stuck inside a box? Have you known what you feel every moment. Have you done something for it to change?

When you choose to live, you forget the most disturbing side of yourself and open up to the most beautiful sight… The world. Life is to know where you stand between both and to realize that this is your job forever, to live one moment at a time.

You’ve made a choice to read, which means you want to be where you are and that you’re happy being where you are. You want to do something. You’re job my friend is to figure out what is best for you and to do it. Choose life. Your entire life depends on the choice you make. Good evening. Have a blessed day!


How to overcome negative feelings

I am a very negative person. I never believed it when my director told me that i was. I thought he was imposing a thought on me, or perhaps, he is speaking about himself.

But the truth is unavoidable. We all know the truth. It is not away from our reach, its what we always know, whether you are awake or asleep. The truth is like a mirror, it sits in front of you and shows you what you are.

So, finally i agree that i am a negative person. I am responsible for all my failures. In life, emotionally, and omnipotently. I am responsible for my body, my mind and the happiness of my soul. Failing to feel good is lack of responsibility for yourself.


My feelings are controlled by no one. Not what i hear, not what i see, not what i think. Words have no effect on me, because i don’t believe in words anymore. There is something beyond what can be told and that alone shall i believe, anymore.

Negative feelings are created by none other than yourself. If you feel avoided, its because you are avoiding yourself. If you feel controlled, its because you want to be controlled. If you feel sad or depressed, its because you don’t want to be happy.

I know its hard to accept that you are responsible for your emotions. I still believe in my story. The story of my life. I am still part of what i cannot forget. THE ME. The me i know. The me i live for, but on a higher note. Does it really matter who i am!

I was imagining what it would be to die, sometime ago and it reminded me of a moment i spent in a flight. It was a moment of truth. The moment i truly knew the real selfish me, The me that cares for nothing. Not the people i know, not the relationships i have, not the world, not my pets, the most adorable pets i project myself to love, not anyone on earth or in heaven, because they all mean mE.

I am selfish, i care for the clothes i wear, i care for the money i make, and all for the time i want to spend. At that moment i realized that there is nothing outside of me that i really know or want. The flight was taking off. Death may feel that way, i thought.

Is it negative to think of death? I wonder if i am in the right track after all.

I was swimming the other day in an amusement park. I believe i was the only person who wasn’t amused and was really trying hard to swim. I couldn’t. I drank a sure three glasses of chlorinated water and didn’t feel too good.

Then came that flying spark. Out of nowhere i realized all i have to do is not be scared to swim through that wave pool. I let it go. I knew there was no way out of my body, however hard i try to reach out.. there is no way out.

It reminds me of my cousin.. He identified my negative nature and told me the problem was in my intent. Its true i have a negative intent for myself. But how do i cure it.

Do i go to a doctor and take prescribed pills or do i write about it and see what is going on and keep a note of it? I’ve done both. The solution to any problem is within the problem itself. He told me this thing, my cousin, the only thing i’ll remember of him for the rest of my life.. He said.. once you’re in there’s no way out. Its like a hotel california.. The abyss of the truth.

Accepting this abyss, is the only way to live. knowing that being able to see it is a miracle may help in changing your negativity. Life is the mysterious path given to you. You alone own your life. How thankful should we be to our parents, for their love. Why don’t we see that we are all gifts of love.

And what are we to that we’re born..

To think is my freedom. Its the only way i can change myself and my feelings, and therefore, i decide what i want to be.

Why I think Autism is the next level in Human Consciousness

Question your reality. Make a life changing thought.

My research on autism began many years ago. The reason i started researching on this particular subject is because of a conversation I had with a friend about acid. I hadn’t experienced an acid trip yet, but this friend of mine had already attained a scholarly state in tripping and his explanation was so imaginative, that I already knew what it was to trip and to flip.

For those of you who don’t know what an acid trip is, do not try it at home. It’s not the acid that cleans your bathroom. Beware, my aunt died because she had some of it, and god bless her, she had a nasty death.

The theory that autism may be the evolution of human consciousness began when i learnt a little about the autistic brain In the year 2009. It is the fact that doctors and scientists from all over the world have discovered that autistic people have a different brain. It’s called the autistic brain. It’s bigger than the human brain. It’s got more grey matter, which is responsible for feelings like dejavu and what we recognise as long term memory. I learnt this thing about the grey matter in my 12th std. I had taken psychology as the main paper.

It’s been the most interesting subject I’ve wanted to study about, from ever since.

I wish to continue my research on the amygdala as soon as i have the time to continue my scientific research. Right now, my hands are full with law and cinema.

Anyway back to autism. Autism is not a disease, it is a disorder, which as humans, we cannot understand. And therefore the condition has been classified under mental illness which i furiously fight against, because from an autistic persons point of view, it could be us who is mentally ill.

I believe the autistic mind is an advanced brain condition. Science is a growing resource for mankind which serves the thirst for knowledge. Science has developed something called a theory of the mind. As in, we have been told that each person has a mind of their own and that each person’s mind has a different set of thoughts, beliefs, desires and intent. That each person’s mind can only be accessed by introspection and reading another’s mind is equal to magic, therefore, impossible.

Our constitutional law and international civil code is a principle based on this theory, and therefore change in such a belief, would change our entire civilization, the way we think, the reason for existence and would eventually let us question reality itself.

The reason why I think autism is a higher consciousness is because of an autistic persons nature of existence. There’s a test called the Sally-Anne test, for all children. Children who fail this test are classified under the autism spectrum, and the levels are graded to identify the depth of their condition. Now the Sally-Anne test proves the existence or the non-existence of the theory of a mind.

The mind theory is necessary for us humans to accept these children either into our society or to classify them as mentally ill. The test is a simple skit that children are asked to sit and watch. In the end, the children are questioned and their answer determines their life.

In the skit, two dolls are placed each with a basket, and three marbles on the floor. One of the doll is Sally, and the other is Anne. Sally takes the three marbles and keeps it in her basket, she then leaves the basket and goes out for a break. While Sally is away, Anne takes the marble from Sally’s basket and keeps it in her own. Now the question.

When Sally returns where will she look for the marbles.
Where will Sally look for her marbles?

Non-autistic children will say that she will look in Sally’s own basket, but autistic children, will say that she will look in Anne’s basket.

Sally left her basket with the marbles. Is it not natural for her to find the marbles in her own basket? Why would she go looking for it in Anne’s!

The Sally-Anne test not only proves that autistic people do not have a theory of the mind but also proves that they believe in a universal mind. Which in our scientific world, does not exist. It is a fundamental law, according to natural law, that you cannot prove what does not exist.

Autistic people believe in universal consciousness and therefore, they cannot lie to one another, or even understand what it is to be cheated, or to think further, do the many things that humanity does to one each other especially because they believe that no one will know what happens as long as it has been told. My personal explanation to this, is a growth in consciousness. Autism is a higher level of consciousness.

I believe in humans, we still have the ability to see the truth in reality. But as long as science is the only source, to prove or to probe such notions, it is irrational to read other people’s minds, but however such an act can be explained, through the existence of a sub-conscious mind.

Therefore, my explanation to autism, is that, it is equal to a sub-conscious living, only consciously. I believe that they know the universal truth, that they do not think of what others might think, or believe that others may have a different perspective or believe that an idea belongs to them alone.

They may believe in a universal mind, and for the sake of god, let us all think for one moment, what if that is true? What if there is a future for a society of mankind, made of people with a pure, creative and a united conscience. What if?